13 October 2009

Day 13 - Update on Brian and Breck

Life is slowly returning back to the similar form we remember it before Bennett arrived.

It's been nearly two weeks since our world turned upside down.  That's why there is some relief of returning to life's routines.

Brian started back school this week.  He had originally planned to miss just one day of class when the baby came.  But that one day turned into two weeks within minutes of Bennett's birth.  Brian is working very hard to balance his need to return to his PhD in Religion program at Baylor and his need to care for his family.  But the fabulous support from family, friends and neighbors has helped Brian begin to feel like he can start to focus on school once again.

Breck is still adjusting to the changes.  For her, it's bittersweet.  While she also longs to return to normalcy, it's terribly difficult to go from "life before baby" to "life after".  One moment she was anticipating the arrival of her newborn son - dreaming of getting to dress him up, giving him his first bath and loving on him the way she did with Oliver.  The next moment, it's as if he never arrived.  There is no baby to dress up, to give his first bath, to love on the way she was able with Oliver.  These things will come in time.  But not for now.  So, for Breck, returning to "the way it used to be" can feel like it's as if Bennett's birth never happened.  The nursery is still untouched.  Oliver has never met his big brother.  The baby's car seat still sits empty.

We are both looking forward to our first counseling appointment on Wednesday.  Both of us greatly value talk therapy as a safe place to share our thoughts and grieve.  The challenges of the past two weeks have happened so quickly that much of it we have been unable to fully process on our own.  We feel counseling is a healthy way of dealing with these changes.  So, we are looking forward to this time to help our burdened hearts heal.

We certainly love our little man and are thrilled to have him physically join our family soon.  We know that this time is just but a season.  Here today, gone tomorrow.  But as with any painful season, it can feel like a lifetime.


  1. Praying for this time of transition and for your counseling sessions - I hope they provide a helpful place to work through everything you guys are going through. You are close in our prayers. We love you.
    Tim & Cynthia

  2. This is one of the things I wanted to ask you about last night - whether Brian had returned to school. I'm assuming you're not working yet? Just as I mentioned, you always seem to know what's on people's minds. There are so many people thinking of you guys and wishing we were there to give you a hug and offer a shoulder to lean on. But, since we can't be there, this makes us feel like we're right there with you.

    I think it's wonderful you're going to counseling. That's a very smart move. It will be helpful to talk it out. My family didn't do that when Erin was sick...and boy, I wish we had. We turned out okay, but I think it would have helped all of us to talk it out.

    Continue to hang in there. Be strong and keep your chin up! Your time to take Bennett home will come. We pray for it daily. Love you!

  3. I'm so sorry I'm just now posting a comment! We've been out-of-town for 1 1/2 weeks and I just sat down and read EVERY post! My heart is face is stained with tears...and I feel like I've been punched in the gut. But, like you've said, GOD IS GOOD! He is the one who orchestrated all of this! Not only were the two of you chosen, but Bennett was also chosen. May God's glory shine brightly through his life!!! We love you and PLEASE let us know what we can do to help - we're only 1 hr & 15 mins away! :)

  4. He looks like they combed his hair into a mohawk. I love seeing pictures of him all snuggled up close to you Brittany Breck! It won't be much longer, before you get to take him home. I'm so glad to be able to keep up with how you are all doing. My prayers are with you all. Love, Ann McCaa


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